Calories - 1600
Exercise - 10 minutes of walking
Water - 75 ounces
I didn't exercise today, and it totally put me in a bad mood all day. I didn't feel good like I do on days when I work out and I was angry and mean all day, sorry AJ; he got the worst of my bad attitude. I didn't feel confident and didn't feel like I normally do. I had the intentions of working out. I was going to take my dog, Ernie, for a walk for like 30 minutes. We will usually walk around this lake, on some parts we will jog and it is a good cardio work out for me and Ernie. But it was hot yesterday and so we were outside for maybe 10 minutes when poor, black haired, Ernie started to get hot and pant. When he gets too hot or tired he doesn't push through it he just stops. So after 10 minutes of walking we had to stop and then I just turned our outing into more of a relaxing day outside instead of a workout. It was nice to be outside and just enjoy nature and the lake but I really wanted to workout. I thought that I would just workout later tonight and bike or something but when it came time I got lazy and didn't. I totally regret it now.
Its almost a good thing that I didn't workout though because now, for tomorrow, I'm super motivated. I have seen what I feel like and how unhappy I am when I don't workout and its like my body needs it now and craves it. I'm going to kick butt tomorrow and really work hard. I did eat good though. I ate the amount of calories I was supposed to and it surprisingly felt like a lot of food. I always think that I have to starve myself to get in the right amount of calories, but really I get a lot of food when I eat healthy. I did this with some wheat thins. I was wanting to eat a roll and thought that I could have one roll or 16 wheat thin crackers, and so I chose the crackers.
I do still battle with myself on what I can and can't have. I constantly want to eat more food, but I have to tell myself not to and remind my cravings of why I am losing weight. I have to picture myself thin, or imagine wearing smaller sizes and that usually helps me to stay away from more calories than I need. Its hard though. Its hard because its a constant battle with myself. I have to keep reminding myself of why I'm doing this and that it is worth it. It is worth it to be healthy for me, for AJ, for my future family. They are worth it and I am worth it.
Sunday
2 days ago
2 comments:
Tazia!!! I am sooooo proud of you! I so wish I had the motivation that you do! A couple of weeks ago, I printed off this great article about running for beginners (not that you are a beginner...but I definitely am). It's called "Beginner's Guide to Running for Weight Loss"...if you would like it, I would be happy to email it to you!
Keep up the good work, girl! I'm rooting for you!
YES! YOU ARE WORTH IT! You know, it is okay to have a REST day once in awhile. Your body needs it just as much as it needs where you kill it so hard with a workout that leaves your body shaking afterwards.
Sometimes for motivation I imagine this scenario (it's lame but it reminded me of what you visualize). It's like in one of those PROGRESSIVE commercials, where they "check out" with that red lipped girl, with boxes of the insurance they want; "I'll take boat (then they give her a box), home (give her another box), and car insurance (and then give her another box)." So anyway when I am tempted by something, I imagine myself looking at two "boxes" on the first box is a picture of fat me with words like, "Unhappy, dissappointed, low self-esteem, no ambition, etc" on it. On the other box is a picture of skinny me with the opposite words, "Happy! Successful, high self-esteem, etc". If I give into the temptation I'm obviously picking the fat me, over the skinny me, when the skinny me option seems like the obvious choice! I am not sure this even makes sense....
Also, the constant mind badgering will start to diminish. It feels like a constant mind battle right now because you are changing a habit, and changing a habit is never easy and takes a lot of mental work. Eventually, the changes you are making now will just become HOW IT IS and it won't feel like a battle anymore.
Sheesh. Sorry for the novel.
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