Calories - 1,700
Exercise - 1 hour of vigirous cleaning
Water - 98 ounces
I'm a bit disappointed in myself and had a hard time not beating myself up about not blogging yesterday. I didn't even log my calories or exercise. I did workout though! I swam and I love swimming. My favorite thing about swimming is when I go under and push of the wall to start my lap. For those few seconds when I'm gliding through the water I am feel like I'm flying. Then because I'm under water I can't hear anything. It is the most amazing thing to be flying through the silent water. It is so calming and I'm completely addicted to it.
So after my calming yet difficult swim workout I went home and ate some food and then me and my husband ran erands all day. The only down part about yesterday was that I didn't eat hardly anything. I think I might have had 600 calories at the most. The beginning of the day was good and then, because of a fight with the hubby, it went bad. We both didn't eat anything and completely made up today but yesterday was just not a good day for either of us. I think it was because of the bad day that I didn't blog. I was angry, upset and didn't care to blog or care to eat for that matter.
I tried to do better today but didn't get to workout like I wanted. My mother-in-law came over and before she came I ran around like a crazy trying to get my apartment looking perfect for when she arrived. I was cleaning so hard and so quickly that I was dripping sweat, it was pretty gross. It was especially annoying when I was mopping the floor and would drip over areas I had just mopped, argh. But I'm happy to say that my apartment looked great for when she came over. It was fun to be with her too. We had a healthy lunch and then me and my husband did school stuff for the fall semester all day yesterday.
I felt myself lose my motivation yesterday because I ate way more salmon for dinner than I should have. But that wasn't the worst part. When my mother-in-law came over she told us that Splenda is not very good for you, but in moderation its fine. I don't really use Splenda in moderation. I confess! I love this stuff. I will use it all the time in tea. I look at it as the one thing that I can have that totally satisfies my need for sweet. But as we read about some things that can come from having too much Splenda we decided that it is probably best to cut it out of our diet or just use it every now and then, but not in a few glasses of tea everyday.
I honestly feel like I have been robbed of the one thing that kept me sane. The one thing that I could have and didn't feel guilty about. I love the calming wonders of tea and I loved that it was so tasty and no calories. But now I'm worried that it is damaging my body in other ways. Does anyone know much about Splenda, is it really as bad as I'm thinking? Is it okay to have it in one cup of tea a day? I'm so sad about this. Then I worry about all the little to no calorie foods I have been eating. Is this a bad thing in all foods? Like Crystalite? I love that stuff too! I need help finding new low calorie sweets to keep me sane through those tough moments. But then I feel so weak and lame for even having those moments. Blah...
I don't want to be too hard on myself but at the same time I feel like I need to be. I need to be tough on myself so that I don't give up and I don't give in. I'm going to make tomorrow better. It will be a new day and I'm not going to beat myself up for mistakes that are in the past. There isn't much I can do about it now except look forward to a new day and learn from those mistakes.
Sunday
3 days ago
1 comments:
If you ever read my journal you'll see the phrase, "Tomorrow is Fresh," written on pretty much every single day because TODAY I didn't do it right. So you are right, tomorrow is fresh. And it sounds to me like you did the best you could under the circumstance, and isn't that all we can try to do? The best under any given circumstance? You are amazing. Keep up the good work. Just like we can't beat ourselves up over ONE bad decision in a day when so many good decisions were made too, you can't beat yourself up over one DAY when you've been being awesome for so many days. I hope that made sense.
As for splenda and crystal lite and stuff... I remember back when I was starting to drink a gallon of water every day, I would add crystal lite to my water and holy cow, it was sooo easy to drink a gallon of water! But then I read that fake sugars are not good for you and can mess with hormones and this and that, and then I read an article about Jessica Alba who tries to eat CLEAN (meaning she doesn't add much to her food like salt and sweeteners) and tries to enjoy food as it comes. I've been trying really hard to not use fake sugars in my food. I used to buy non-fat plain yogurt, and then add some berries and splenda so that I could enjoy it (Because plain yogurt is kinda gross), but after I read what I read I decided instead to just buy a flavored yogurt (like vanilla) and put my berries in that with no splenda. That way it still tastes good without the fake sugar. The flavored yogurt has more sugar than plain yogurt but it's natural sugar and I was willing to take on the extra few calories. Jillian Michaels would say that real sugar is better for you than fake sugar is. HOWEVER, I have read that STEVIA and TRUVIA are sweeteners that are natural and are made from actual sugar plants, just without the calories, so that is the 'safest' way to go. I say, research it for yourself before you make a decisio. But still use your splenda like you like, but start to ween it out and when it's all gone, decide then what you want to do (and then tell everyone, because I want to know what you decide!)
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